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Well, it's Wednesday at about 1 p.m. Yes, I should be at work but I am sicker than a dog. I have a pretty good cold and feel pretty much like barfing. Sorry for the graphics. Jessyca is also home today, she has the same thing. Things could be worse. I have a big 2 hr test on Friday which I'm not really looking forward to. I should probably be studying but I know that if I don't update this thing I'll hear it from Kat. Love you babe. I ran into an ex sister-in-law yesterday. She started talking to me and all I could do was think was I really that blinded?! She said a few things that were pretty harsh, but as my mother would say, "God bless her." (not one of scott's sisters but his brother's wife) I will be glad to move out of this town and to a place where nobody knows me and will just leave me alone.
Pizza Night with My Father-in-law
Well, I went to my fahter-in-law's the other night with a pizza. Jessy and I visited with him for a couple of hours. He is such a great guy. He has always been here for me and Jessy. He lost his wife almost 2 years ago and now sits alone in his house day in and day out. It is very heartbreaking to watch. He tells me how much he misses Virginia's hugs and just sharing a conversation with her. He truely loved his wife through thick and thin. While we sat there chit chatting he kept looking at my finger. I finally broke down and told him that Gary and I are engaged and that I will be moving to Gouverneur after we are married. He got a little choked up but wished us the best. He and I are very close. I am more like a daughter to him than a daughter-in-law. A friend of his once made a comment to him about his ex daughter-in-law and he quickly corrected him. He advised his friend that I am and always will be his daughter. To bad his son didn't get his genes, he should take a few lessons.
God is in Control
I just wanted to write and let everyone know how awesome God really is. As humans we tend to look at things and wonder when God is going to start working. God is already working even though we may not be able to see it with our eyes. We need to have faith and believe God and His promises for they are yes and amen. I'm so greatful for the things that are happening in my life. I'm also thankful for I know that God is in control of all things. This is why I love to praise the Lord. Without Him I am nothing, I'm lost. But with Him I know that all things are possible. I know that the Lord is doing a great work in the youth in our church and it just makes me beam. Because of God my daughter was able to forgive her father, Rex was able to give a testimony like never before, Billy wants to go to Utica and take intern classes, Jeremy just is becoming quite the little man, and Courtney is coming out of her shell. I just look at the youth and I'm so proud and so thankful that God is doing the work that he is. Praise God for He is truly worthy of all praise. He is an awesome God and we need to focus on Him and believe that He will answer our prayers and provide our needs.Jessy is in God's hands and I know that He loves her even more than I do. Knowing this helps me to realize and remember that if I only want what is best for her just think what God wants for her. My faith is in God and I'm believing Him when it comes to my daughter. He has seen me through some pretty hard times and I know that He will see her through also. We can try to run but it doesn't work. He will catch you in the end. This I know for sure. Thankyou, Lord for being in control and for loving us so much and for bringing me back to you.
God's Promises Are Really Yes And Amen!!!
God is so awesome. It has been awhile since I have been on my blog so please be patient while I catch you all up on everything. I was just resently engaged on October 22nd to the most wonderful man. He is an absolute sweetheart. I love him so much. He proposed to me on one knee in his kitchen and of course I cried and couldn't really see the ring that well. When I finally got my eyes to dry up so I could see my mouth about hit the floor. He didn't just get me a ring he got me a ROCK!!! He is very attentive to me. Always making sure everything is okay. My friend Pammy just laughs at us. She is constantly telling her husband to take notes or hitting him and wanting to know why he doesn't do that. She isn't a Christian but she has told me more than once that she can see a difference in us and that our relationship has a higher power in it. Of course it does......God is in our relationship and I'm thankful for that. God is just so awesome. I now have a partner in Christ. He prays with me, reads the Bible with me, and encourages me in Christ. I have never had an experience like this and what really blows my mind is that Gary has only been a Christian since April of this year. He just seems so grown and mature considering the short time that it has been. He reminds me when I have concerns to pray about them and give it to the Lord. When I become afraid or start thinking negatively he is there to tell me I need to get rid of that mindset and all negative thinking because that isn't what God wants. He also adores my daughter Jessyca. He is always there for her when she needs someone to talk to or if she just needs a hug. He always tells her, "I'm not your dad and I will never try to take his place, but if you need to talk I'm always here for you."Well, now I've got tears in my eyes. It is so strange. When I think or talk about this man I get tears in my eyes. I know that God has blessed me with Gary and that all of His promises are yes and amen. Thankyou Lord for all you have done and all that you are doing in my life and the lives of all my loved ones. p.s. that includes you two......Kathy and Heather.
