God is Awesome

I just wanted to write this to say how awesome God truly is. I have a husband who loves me, a daughter and 2 step-children that I adore, a wonderful family, and a wonderful church family. God has blessed me with so much in my life and I thank Him for everything. He has had His hand upon my life even when I wasn't following Him. He is such a loving and forgiving God. It really breaks my heart when people can't see that about Him. When they are so blinded and deceived that they continue to live their lives with no one to truly lean on. I can't imagine my life without Him. I often watch people make decisions on a whim, with no prayer involved and wonder how they do it. I couldn't and wouldn't do that myself. I need the Lord in my life. I am truly dependent on Him for all things in my life. I even depend on Him to help me get through the day at work. I rely on Him to guide my hands and direct me in different procedures throughout my day. There is no one like the Lord Jesus Christ. He is truly my first love.

Finding Lost Relatives Via Internet

I couldn't believe it when I opened my myspace account the other day and found a message from a cousin that I haven't seen or talked to in over 25 years. I was completely blown away and pleasantly surprised at the same time. She is actually my Grandma Em's cousin. She is the same age as my mom and I used to be best friends with her sister Penny. She lives in PA and has 3 children and 3 grandchildren. She is doing well. I can't wait to tell mom, dad, and Aunt Cookie that she contacted me. I think they will be excited. It is amazing how you can get connected with people through this thing we call the internet. For along time I have only seen the bad things that it has caused but as of Saturday I can now see the good that can come of it. She is going to be emailing me with her address. She would like me to send her some pictures so she can complete the "Ward" family album she has been working on. So if I have any relatives that read this I could use some pics to send her. Thanks.

An Evening With My Mom

I went to my mother's last night and spent the night. We had a wonderful time. We attempted to watch Hush, Hush Sweet Charlotte but didn't get very far. Whenever we get together we have to chit chat and completely miss the movie. My mom and I are like best buds. She told me that I'm the only one that she feels she can really be herself around and not be judged. My mom tends to be a little hard on herself, she is a wonderful lady. But then I feel the same way with her. I feel that there isn't anything that I can't share with my mom and vise versa. I love my mom very much and only hope that I can follow in her footsteps. She is an awesome woman of God and is also stronger than she knows. Everyone should have a mom like mine. Well, at least I think so.

I'm Back

Hello everyone. Just wanted to let you know that I'm finally back. I am now happily married to Gary. Jessyca has moved out of the house and is renting a place with one of her friends. Little Gary isn't so little and is now a senior in high school. He will also be taking his driver's test on Tuesday. Gary is still working at Gouverneur Talc. We now host a cell group at our home with Drew and Lisa. We are going to have new people coming in the fall. I really can't wait. I know that God is moving in this area and I'm excited to think that He can use our household to reach out to others. I also have a beautiful niece who is two. I pray that she will grow into a Godly woman.

New Do

Well, I finally broke down and had my hair cut off. When I say hair cut off that is what I mean. I am now sporting a GI Jane do. I love it. There is absolutely no mess or fuss with it, it doesn't hang down in my face, and hair is way over rated anyways. Oh yeah and Gary absolutely loves it. I think that it will be really cute for the wedding. I'm going to skip the veil thing and just wear a simple tiara. Jessyca doesn't like it and when R.Jay saw it it made him stutter....hey shte shteener? Well, it went something like that anyway. He's a cutie, you got a good when there Heather. Well, I saw Riley the other day. She is now eating lady bugs and telling her mother no no. She is so cute. She loves Jessy, I think its her hair and bracelets that she was really after. I'm going to close for now. Take care all and God Bless.

Girls Day Out

I had so much fun yesterday. We had our ladies luncheon at church. We had a few guest and Kathy spoke, it was a really good word. I was really happy to see my sister and Riley there. I keep praying that Riley wouldn't know a day without God. That she would grow up in the church and that her love for the Lord would be strong. It saddens me when I think about the things that she is missing out on now. I know she is only 10 months old and that she really doesn't understand but I know from my experience with my daughter and my cousins that starting them out young is the best route. After the ladies luncheon we went to the new consignment shop that my uncle Jim and Kim just opened. It is really nice and the prices are really good as well. I bought some clothes and jewlery, Jen and Heather got some things, I'm not sure if mom got anything or not, and Riley played with a basket full of doilies. She was so cute. She cried when her mother took the basket away from her. The thing was bigger than she is. After we left the shop I went to Gary's and we went for a ride on his motorcycle.....soon to be OUR motorcycle. Cool!!! God is so AWESOME!! You know I used to wallow in life and never really found anything good about it. I figured you lived, you died and that was it. Boy, was I wrong. God is so good and so merciful. He is truly a loving God who only wants the best for his kids. Thank God that I am one of his kids. Well, I need to go for now. I'm tearing up just thinking about how good God is and how much I love Gary.

Well, Kat has told me I need to update my blog. Things with the wedding plans are going great. We have our wedding planned for July 15th at 2:00. The reception hall has been reserved, it will be at the Edwards Fire Department. We got a really good deal and couldnt pass it up. We have the photographer booked, the caterer booked, Tim is video taping, Lis is playing the keyboard, Lura is singing, Shawn is announcing at the reception, my uncle Howard is doing a little part in the ceremony, Pastor Kevin is performing the ceremony. There are still things that we need to get done though. Please keep me in prayer. I am taking my xray portion of the state test on Tuesday at 9 in Watertown. I know that God is in control and that only through him will I even begin to pass this test. Believe me it will definetly go on the breakthrough board at church. Gotta go for now. Will update this thing as soon as I can.